Ya Allah... I'm Sorry!!! :'(

 

Ya Allah.....!
it hurts when I have to let go the things I really love..
it hurts when I have to lose something that I really want..
... it hurts, Allah…
it hurts..

but believe me, Ya Allah..
I will feel hurt most when I know disobey You..
it hurt most, Allah..
believe me..
believe me….

I realize that I can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that I can never smile without the concious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that I can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..

I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For I have neglected You for long time..
For I have loved others more than I should love You..
For I have prioritized others more than I should..

Even then…
You still gives me food to eat.. when I am not supposed to eat what I shouldn't eat
You still gives me eyes to see.. when I am not supposed to see what I shouldn't see
You still gives me ears to hear.. when I am not supposed to hear what I shouldn't hear
You still gives me skin to touch.. when I am not supposed to touch what I shouldn't touch
You still give the air I'm breathing now.. when I have done tonnes of mistakes..

but I forget..
I'm so occupied with this world..
I'm so busy with my life..
I'm so so so busy about myself..

I can never forgive myself if this were to happen again..
how can I do that to You Allah…I'm such an arrogant slave..
I'm not thankful to You…
I feel embarrased Ya Allah..I'm embarrased…Ya Allah!

but please Ya Allah…
soon ONE DAY I will be meeting You YA ALLAH!
FORGIVE me on that day YA ALLAH
HAVE MERCY on that day YA ALLAH

SHOWER YOUR BLESSINGS on that day YA ALLAH
THAT is my only WISH...YA ALLAH! :'(